My Love

Well of course my posts have been about Australia and almost all will be but its my blog i can write about what i want and this one has nothing to do with australia. It's my blog and i want to throw some of my thoughts out here so suck it up suckasssss lol.
For a while, well probably since like 8th grade, i've been thinking about love. Everybody wants it, everybody needs it. Some say it's amazing, some say it hurts. I've noticed that the way people describe it and even how i use to think about it, Love is characterized as being dichotomous, all or nothing you know like you're in love or you're not, either its amazing or it hurts, either its right or its wrong. Slowly i'm starting to learn that love is a process, constantly changing and becoming more complex. I use to want to be the perfect girlfriend, i'd think that we'd hit it off and fall in love and things would forever be wonderful but if things were always wonderful we wouldn't be growing together and developing our love for each other. Of course mistakes will be made, some that are unforgivable and there comes a point when maybe it's just best to let go of that love because its too hard for you to recuperate from what its done to you. Maybe the one you love hasn't made any major mistakes like cheat or lie but something is missing, they've lost that feeling of being in love with you, they're just comfortable being with you. This is what i am afraid of, not of being cheated on or lied to but spending my life with someone who is with me because i meet their qualifications for a great wife and not because they can't imagine their life without me. I can say this specifically about me, my love is not perfect, my love is secretive sometimes, my love is embarassing sometimes, my love is so crazy sometimes there should be prescribed medication for it, my love will always make mistakes...But my love is always willing to be better, my love is always getting stronger and constantly reassessing what you mean to me, my love is always there even when my head isn't, my love is forever and worthy of the same shared intensity and depth of emotion, desire and need. I will never give up on my love, even when others do. In the end i just hope there is someone who shares my love.