completely confused???

This is an emotional post for me. You guys know when i first got to australia, i was feeling alone. The thing is it was the same way when i first went to college too. You feel alone, like you're thrown into this new world and expected to find a group or a partner in crime instantly and its hardwork especially if you're shy. well sometimes you go to events or just randomly you meet people and you feel like yes this is it, i've made a connection and then nothing. You see them around and its like they don't even remember who you are or at most you get a "hey whats up?" and you think to yourself, was i really not that interesting as a person that he or she decided i dont even want to get to know them? Its tough. Well, i had the chance to meet some great people in Australia and we had soem good times together but all of sudden they stop texting me when i use to get texts all the time, they stop visiting when i use to permanently leave my door unlocked so i wouldnt have to keep getting up every hour when they'd visit. I'm telling myself maybe they have a lot of work and they've been busy but facebook tells me otherwise. I cant help but ask myself WTF happened? why were we so close two weeks ago and then all of a sudden its as if we never met? I don't know guys, i assume that good friends will make time for me and i wont ask myself questions like this when it comes to them. Like my new friend from Loyola that i met here, i feel as though even when we leave Australia we'll still be good friends and hang out at Loyola, honestly i cannot say the same about other people from Loyola. nd even worse what about the people i met that aren't from Loyola, but from different parts of the world, i may never ever see them again, and im pretty sure some will write on my wall from time to time but others wont. They'll just be a bunch of memories in my mind. Of course they changed my life even in small ways and i'm glad to have met them, i just wonder what caused things to change so drastically? I'm not torn up by this, just completely confused???

Spring Break OH TEN!

So for my spring break i went on a ten day trip from Brisbane to cairns called One Fish Two Fish. It is a Loyola tradition, every semester people who study abroad in australia go on this trip, it costs almost 2500 but after i describe it u'll realize just as i did how WORTH it, it is. So in total 30 Loyola students went and 40 other students studyign abroad in different parts of Australia (mostly american or candian). The first night we stayed in this hostel where there was a bar right downstairs so ofcourse we hit that up, We got two free shots and discounted drinks all night. I had this shot called a Cowboy, i hear its the equivalent of the slippery nipple in america?? well its like baileys and butter scotch it was delicious i had about 4 of those lol and then vodka and sprites. It was a good night after all those drinks lol..The next day we went to the zoo where we saw the crocodile hunters family including his famous daughter Bindi! (yea i didnt know who she was either, shes like the quivalent of hannah montana but for a much younger audience) Anyways, that night we had a booze cruise mmm free wine and beer for two hours on a huge boat sailing the sea at night, AMAZING!...The next day we went to an island (Fraser Island) and relaxed on the beach...Teh next day we rode on speed boats to the WhitSunday Islands, on the speed boat ride we played a huge game of spin the bottle and passed around two goon sacks(bags of wine) and didnt leave the boats until they were finished so we were tipsyyyy by the time we hit the island. We layed on the island for a few hours where i was given swim lessons by a few friends. We hit the speed boats to head to our new hostels on another island and of course we hit the wine again on the way there. So many people blacked out by the time we hit the island lol...That night we had a plastic party where we were given three plastic bags and had to make an outfit out of it of course mine was very skanky lol It was a lot of funnn, the next day i lounged around the pool all day then at night we had a beach party at the bar. I found a sexy tour guide to give me swim lessons and a few kisses afterwards for being a good student lol...I met a cute aussie afterwards to have a lil fun with for the night;) The next day we got on a multi million dollar yacht and sailed the sea for a day of scuba diving. Day 6 we went WHITE WATER RAFTING, it was sooo much fun, the rapids were crazy our boat filled with water,w e were smacked in the face with water, landed into rocks, went under waterfalls, it was amazing. We paddled our way down the amazing river for 4 hours of fun. Finally we were in Cairns and feeling very EXTREME! Day 7 during the day there was an opportunity to go skydiving but instead i got my FIRST TATTOO!! it says Chosen Silence and i love ittttttt!!!! At night was BUNGY JUMPING, we plunged from 145 feet in the air down over a lake, i was so scared but once i jumped it was the biggest adrenaline rush EVER, then me and two friends got on a swing that went up 160 feet and sent us flying down across the park at 120 km/hr with us screaming our lungs out lol...After that i had my first TEQUILA SHOT! which was definitely called for after that adventure...
Day 8 we took another amazing boat to the Great Barrier reef for a day of snorkeling and scuba diving. With my new tattoo i couldnt snorkel or scuba dive but the boat was amazinggggg...That night we had a pub crawl consisting of 4 bars and a crazy contest at each. Well i ended up winning two of the contests. The first was a condom popping contest where i had to bounce up and down ona pump that was placed on a guys lap and blow up a condom until it popped. The second contest was the fake Orgasm contest, i dont think i need to explain the rules for that, and obviously I WON! lol...I won to free tshirts for the contests but i gave one to one of my friends... The final night we had a goodbye dinner and party, awards were given out and i got an award for being loved by everyone and wining the contests and dancing my ass off lol.. The next day before our flight we went to the movies and saw The Last Song with Miley Cyrus omg such a good movie cried my eyes out lol..We had late flight back, we got in about 12am but didnt get back to our dorms until almost 2 am and i had a text at 11 for which i hadnt studied for yet. Overall this spring break was the best time of my life. I met so many people, came out fo my comfort shell and accomplished so many things i never would have imagined. I dont think anything will ever top this experience, to quote some of my favorite lines from the trip used by everyone but especially one really loud Long Island Italian Boy "SPRING BREAK OH TEN, SHOW US THE TWINS! DUMP EM OUT! YOUZE A DIRTY GIRL!" i'll never forget spring break OH TEN! :)

Pajama Party:)

On the 27th, i went to a Pajama party with my three favorite homies. Well i went with two the other one met us there. We had to take a bus, a train and then get picked up from the train station just to get to the house where this party was. The entire journey there, the two boys kept picking on me and at first i was laughing but then i was just annoyed. They made me so mad that i just stopped talking to them for 45 minutes. Finanlly we get to the party and i didnt know anyone there so it was awkward. A game of spin the bottle starts up and im dying to play so after quietly nagging my boys about how i wanna play they get me in the game lol. I ended up kissing two boys, the first wasnt cute at all eh but the second was sooo hot, hes south african but hes white with curly blonde hair and a body to die for uhh so sexy lol..After playing i just stood around drinking because the music wasnt my type of music at all..It got pretty late and the trains had stopped running so we had to sleepover which wasnt a problem. We ended up having a big sleepover, me, my three homies and the sexy boy i kissed all slept on two twn mattresses on the floor lol...As always i was the only girl but i love that. After some heavy flirting with my one homie we all got in bed in uncomfortable positions and tried to sleep. I had so many heavy legs on me and arms around me, it was so hot in that room lol. In the middle of the night i was like 'im hot" and two of my homies including the one i was flirting with was like what? and then i just ripped off my pants lmao It was so funny, they were so caught off guard. We ended up sleeping til noon the next day before walking a mile back to the train station and heading back to Uni. Although the party wasnt all that i had fun with my homies, hopefully that wont be my last pajama party:)

Coming to Australia was a GOOD decision!

Ok so i havent updated in a long time so im going back and telling u everything, ok So back to March 26th, it was my homie's birthday and we surprised him with a birthday cake and i bought him a card and decorations for his door. He was so surprised and so happy. I ended up getting WASTEDDDDDDD on his birthday that night so i passed out shortly after him blowing out his candles. But before passing out i was talking to this guy one of my homie's friends and he was very interested in me. i was interested but only because of the alcohol, without alcohol in my system i probably wouldnt have given him the time of day. Not that he wasnt cute, he was, but he was short and just not appealing to me. Anyway though im talking to this guy and im like i want to go to my room. So he walks me to my room and i guess he thought he was gonna get some action. He probably would have but um I THREW UP, not once, not twice, but THREE times lol...Very unsexy, he ended up just putting me in bed and leaving lol. I was told the next day that my homie came to my room after that to say thanks for the card and i told him i was a "good girl" i dont remember that at all lol..why would i say that? cuz im ridiculous and was ridiculously drunk lol...But im really happy he enjoyed his birthday, me and this other girl danced on top of a table for him to Birthday Sex as his birthday present lol VERY sexy!...I already know im gonna be so sad when i have to leave him in July, along with the other guys i met here. Idk they're growing on me, as much as they pick on me and get on my nerves some days, they mean so much to me. That really make me feel like coming to Australia was a GOOD decision!